Deppression and anger help?

I have been living my life lately trying to cope with my job going down the drain which supports my life. insurance and everything comes from this job. I havent lost it yet thank god. my life is so un eventful. it seems like no matter how hard I try to be recognized or try harder some other bullshit ten times as strong hits me back down. Im single and Im a 22 year old guy that is in great shape I have a great personality and girls say Im handsome. Ive actually had girls I know that I find interesting and attractive just look at me and then see another guy that might look a little bit better to her or something and be lke damn Im gonna go talk to him because I need a boyfriend. what the hell is wrong with me? basicly this is my entire life Im not living because everything sucks so bad. love,music, friends,family, Im not happy because I can't get a break. suicide sounds great right now because Im pretty much already dead to everybody. it's like Ive been dead for 10 years to all my friends like they have to see my gravestone to realize they once knew me. everytime I go back out into the world and stop feeling like **** something even worse goes down. I dont really feel like getting up. Im tired of being invisible. I guess Im just another wortheless dead american who just needs to dissapear because theres no reason to be visible. apparently I dont matter. I can't explain how terrible this feels. it's not like Im sitting in my room feeling sorry for myself. I go to work like this and I live feeling like this everyday. no matter how much I try to get away from it it wont go away. this world makes me feel like I dont deserve to live.